Sometimes it's really hard to sit, and be still. To listen to just the buzzings of everyday life and to not react to it. Recently, as I've done that, many times the frantic obsession with the stress in my life lifts...even if just for a little while. There are many days where I get so overwhelmed with stress and unhappiness and that I just want to scream. It's hard. But then I sit back and just sit still.... and it is alleviated for a while.
Lately, the Lord has been moving in my heart. Stretching my faith more so than I thought was ever possible. And ITS AWESOME!!!!! I'm starting to think that maybe my prayers and wishing and wanting of faith like those I saw at concerts and bible camp is starting to come over me. I absolutely love the fact that I'm now in a church setting where I WANT to come home and get MORE!!! I want to pick up my bible and see where the lessons came from, read different translations, and study the context. I love that my church is now relating scripture to my everyday life rather than having story time or just saying this is what they did 2000 years ago. It's opened my eyes to things happening around me that are obviously "God things" because there is no other explanation.
I love that I have my "spiritual accountability" partners who I know I can run to if I have questions, or if I'm completely overwhelmed with what the world is putting on me. They can listen to my rant and slowly bring me back to the Truth.
I have to say that I know I fall short. And it's these moments when I struggle the most. I'm a work in progress, and that is the lesson I need to learn. I'm always going to be a work in progress. It's just how I use that progress in the world to further the Kingdom.
**on a short note. I have to say I'm sad about a recent post about my friends. My ex feels as though he's lost his best friends from childhood due to our divorce. I'm upset because he doesn't see the fact that he dropped them well before the divorce.... he never chose them to be his support system when he needed them. I'm sad because I feel like I've taken friendships away, even though I know I've done nothing of the sort. I just needed to get it out**
I pray you all have a wonderful rest of the weekend and week ahead. I pray that God uses the most unusual circumstances in order to show that it really is Him that can work miracles.
