struggling

**well i've decided that I'm going to go this alone persay... at least without the help of an organization. I think it will help me be more happy overall, and I won't feel as though I'll be chastized if I ever feel like indulging. Of course this can't happen everyday, but it is a treat for us to get something we've waited for. Hopefully this will help the journey be a little easier to bear.**


So, I'm struggling a lot right now with this whole diet plan. I know that I want to change my life, and my life style. To be a better mom, wife, and to be here for much longer than if i would continue on the path i was on. However.. i am SO HUNGRY RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!! I can't tell you how good just diving into a plate of chinese food sounds. I'm also struggling with dinner planning since being on this diet. I can only have certain meats, veggies, etc. It's difficult to plan two separate meals for a family. So i'm struggling. trying to figure out what the best route would be.. here's hoping to figuring it out...

just keep swimming...

I'm on day 2 of this new weight loss journey, and I guess..so far so good. I can't really complain much. I've not really been hungry even though i'm on supplements and only about 900 calories a day. I've had much more energy than ever before and i'm hoping I can keep this going until I reach my goal.

I am still looking for an internship/job for school, and its been tough knowing that I don't necessarily have all the experience or qualifications for the job, but know that i can do really well at it. I suppose I just do what I can, and leave the rest to God. Hopefully I'll hear an answer soon.

In less than a week we will be on our first true family vacation (besides honeymoon). I'm so excited to be able to spend time with family and be able to just relax... no school, no work, just us.
Now its off to enjoy the rest of the day! Hopefully the storms will hold off so I can get a walk in!!!

New Beginning

Well, here I am, at the start of a new beginning yet again. This past week I had a few down days that really got to me. My self destructive mind was at work, and I really got down about how I feel about my appearance, my overall health, and what the future holds for me. So what do I do? I go to a weight loss center, sign up, spend WAY too much money... and continue to be overwhelmed by the overall cost of what this plan means for my family and myself. But, alas, I have made a decision to improve my health and it starts with a baby step. I've joined Slim4Life, and I'm hoping that this will help me kickstart a new lifestyle that will continue into the future. It is a little difficult trying to menu plan and not make the rest of the family go on the diet as well, but I think we can do it if we plan, plan, plan.

I'm also looking at a new beginning in my career. I've looked to start a career using my degree, which would be good considering how much I've invested in it! I've applied for positions I know that I'm not qualified for, but at least it gets my foot in the door, and I can see where it leads me. I'm trying to be rational and not make any huge decisions before I know everything is taken care of, but I think it could be interesting where I end up.

Sooo...I'm praying alot, asking for guidance, and trying to talk out as much of my experience as possible, so I can get feedback, and see if I'm even thinking on the right track. I know somethings make sense in my head, but as soon as I say it I think, "how dumb is that?"
Here's to my new beginnings, all of them, and hoping to land as much on my feet as possible.

I'm Back!

Ok, so sorry for the unintended hiatus, life has just been busy!!!

Jacqueline is probably the most amazing thing I've ever seen! It is so awesome to see her learn and figure out her "life challenges" haha! If only life stayed that simple! Josh has completed his EMT training, and is in the process of finding out his grade on the practical so he could take the written test. I'm so proud of him for his accomplishments! I am only 3 semesters away from graduation (finally!) and I am loving trying to figure out where I want my career to take me.

I'm so excited that we are taking a trip over Memorial Weekend so that Josh and I can have some R&R, and Josh's family will be able to spend some much needed time with Jackie.

I'm also excited that we are getting a young adult fellowship going at church. Our church as lacked anything for 18-40 year olds ever since I can remember. It will be nice to be able to grow relationships with other people our age, that know where we are in our faith journey, and perhaps we can even learn from each other. I know we are going to try and start an online bible study for those of us that can't be at church during traditional times, and I think that will be awesome since I haven't been able to be at church for almost 6 months now... and my schedule is so sketchy...

So here's looking forward to our faith journey, and our first summer as a larger family!!